Sojourn Saga: I, Forest
By: Michael
Thread: Iron Writer
Posted: November 07, 2002

Flash Intoduction : Introduction


Consequence


If consequence do but approve my dream,        
My boat sails freely, both with wind and stream.

ACT III SCEENE III, Othello, the Moor of Venice


"That was five.     Its over now, get out here!" yelled a tall man in a black hooded cloak.     He clasped at his shoulder in pain as he looked about the thick grown of conifers and massive velvet leafed aspen trees.   He picked up one of the larger leaves that had recently fell to the ground and pressed it against his wound.

"I have one shot left you fool!   You have nowhere else to go!   Give it up and let his leave this wretched place," he cried out once more.   The man's mind was feeling as if it was whirling about in his head.     He winged his eyes tightly.

"How do you know?" yelled a shrilled voice from the left.   His eyes darted to the bank of snow between two trees, only to see nothing.

"You took a round when you ran away from your camp.   We know that a box of your ammunition is seven shots.   You fried two at me when you were escaping," he began to explain.   The man pulled off the black hood to expose a head of thick brown hair.    

"You shot at me five times the last three days.   Twice the first day, twice the second day, and just right now.     I hate to tell you this, but you're a horrible shot."

A thin small man slowly arose from behind the drift of snow.     His thick white fox fir coat was tainted pink from blood.     He scowled at the man dressed in the black cloak, which mad him smile in return.

"You look like a adolescent who had his candy stolen," explain the brown haired man to the combatant.   The thin man in the firs stood silent, his fist clenched.     The clocked man sighed.

"Put your hostilities aside for now.   I don't really care what happens to youÑdo you understand that?   I was ordered to bring you back alive or kill you.   Its your choice," he explained.       The man in the fir coat glared at his captor.

"I have a knife, you are wounded, I can still kill you," he explained.   His gloved hand fingers rubbed tightly against each other.

"Hardly.   It's been three days with little or no food.   I had rations, and from what I could tell you have nothing but your gun.   Your shot was off horribly the last two days, which shows that you are starving a weak."

"You guess a lot," he muttered in reply.   The man nodded as he clenched his wounded shoulder tightly. He shook his head and began to march down the frost-covered mountain.  

"Coming?" asked the man in black.     The man in the firs stood as if cemented to the spot.   The man in black gave out a heavy sigh before pausing in his steps.

"We can have a knife fight if you wish.   Personally, like I said before, I don't really care.   My arm is bleeding and I don't want to have to get cut up more simply because you have a death wish," he explained.   He began to step back down the clearing to the bottom of the mountain.

"Wait," muttered the white-coated man.     His green eyes looked down at the snow.     Again the man in black paused.

"What will become of me?"   he asked.     The black-coated man didn't respond.

"What's your name?"

"Terrance."

"Chances are you will be tortured, and held captive until the end of the war Terrance.     You may be killed as well.   But since we landed foot on this island, those have already been your odds."

Terrance traced his gloved hand through his long locks of blonde hair.     The man in black began to march back down the mountain for third time.     Silently, the blonde haired man followed.

"We took over your camp, so we have eight kilometers to go," the black-coated man spoke after the first mile.   They marched quietly as bronze disk of morning sun filtered through the long protrusions of wood deemed trees.   Standing nearly twice as tall as the rest of the growth on the mountain were the tall juniper trees that held most of their leaves still in the dead of winter.

"Why do they do that?" muttered the man as he lifted his black hood and pulled it over his head.     His face puffed pink in the cold winter weather.

"What?"

"Those big trees.   Why do they still have leaves?"

"They're sacred," explained Terrence.    

They walked another kilometer in silence.

"To whom?"

"What?"

"The trees.   To whom are they sacred to?"

"No one," explained the white-coated man.       The man in the black sighed.

"I hate liars," he explained.     Terrance didn't respond.   Slowly the man stepped his way around a drift with every gentle step.     It has been two kilometers and he still clenched to his arm.

"Put snow on it.   It will numb the pain," explained the blond-haired man.   The captor shook his head.

"The stuff is too damn cold.   I'm freezing enough as it is," explained the man in the black coat.     Terrance shook his head.   He turned his gaze briefly down the mountain and at the valley below.   He could see the campsite.

"No snow?   Where is that?" asked the man in the white fox skins.

"Bilthem."

"Bilthem?"

"Its in a desert," he explained.  

Terrance nodded.   The paced another half mile though the snow.   The sun glistened off the side of the mountain and shined back into the thick husks of the trees.   The large leaves of the aspens drifted down onto the ground and on top of the pile of snowflakes.

"How old are you?" asked the hooded man suddenly.     He now dragged the butt of his rifle in the snow behind him.     Terrance blinked.

"I'm eighteen," he replied.   The man whistled.

"A young one as I thought.   You are as old as my sister," he explained.   He dropped his rile momentarily and scooped up a pile of snow.     Picking it up again, he slapped it down on his shoulder and began to march.

"I have a sister too."

"Yeah?   What's her name?"

"Parthenia."

"That's a pretty name."

"What's your sister's name?"

"Danelle."

"What's your name?"

"Marcus."

A neutral tone of blue filtered though the sky as the bright morning was become overcast.     Marcus wrapped his cloak tightly around his tanned skin.     He pulled on his gloves to fit them tightly against his fingers. The blonde man shook his head.

"Is she in Bilthem?"

"Who?" asked Marcus.

"Your sister," replied the captive.       The man dressed in the black coat shook his head.

"No, she's here in Tasliden, she'sÉ hm.     I guess she would be called a surgeon's assistant." explained the man.   He brown-haired man scratched his scalp.

"Polias."

"What?"

"We call it Polias.   This whole region.   Its your people who call it Tasliden," he explained.   Marcus sighed.

"She's in Polias then.   Where is your sister?" asked Marcus.

"Safe."

Marcus nodded.   The pain from his wound subsided, but the throbbing in his shoulder remained.     Fore a moment as he walked in the snow, he sighed.     Eyes closed, he could hear the sound of the jays and the remaining finches echo songs through the valley.

"Coldness," muttered Marcus. Between his steps and Terrence's, he could swear to hear the hops of some winter hare.

"Why are you here?   Where are you from" asked the man covered in fox firs.     Marcus paused.     A small white hare scurried across the distance between the two soldiers.

"I have no idea.   I don't want to be here, its too cold."

"Then why are you here?"

Marucs glanced down at the snow.   How can a place possibly be so cold as to have something like snow?   He took a deep breath.

"Because an Empress is searching for something.     Because someone placed into my hands this gift from godsÑ" he held out the snow covered riffle, " and told me to attack.   Because an Empress told some one who told me that I couldn't return home until we have found what she is searching for. Because they covered me in this threadbare black cloth and told me to chase you down."

Marcus slowly lowered to his knees for a moment, his hand dropping away from his wound.     The man in white firs walked closer to him, only to drop his gun behind him and sit.

"My sister," muttered Terrence, loosing his words.   Although grief stricken Marcus heard the man whisper the words with such a fondness and sweetness to them that it made him rethink his thoughts about the young man.

"My sister, she used to always say that life was nothing but consequence"

Curiously, a pair of squirrels watched the two intruders from their hole in one of the few aspens.   Stunned in his mind for where his thoughts should lead him, Marcus questioned why the sun shined so brightly but didn't give an ounce of warmth in this foreign land.

"See, people do things they don't want to do sometimes.   She tried so hard to make me remember that.   I try very hard to remember her words."

Marco's shoulder throbbed so hard that he nearly howled in pain.   It was a cold numb pain that felt like it contradicted itself.     He let his face rise away from the cold snow he rested in and looked towards the murky grey sky.   The sun appeared like a crescent smile as he hanged slightly between and beneath the clouds.

"You say used to," muttered Marco.   Terrence noticed that the captor's voice has sunken down from the cocky shrill it was before.   The blond man closed his eyes as he let his hand raced up and down the length of his boot.

"You asked why these aspen trees bloom all year around while the others do not," muttered the man in the thick white coat.   Marcus nodded slightly while still gazing at the clouds.

"You see, we're all like this forest.   There are a lot of different things in it.   Some things are hostile; others are peaceful like the trees.   Like it or not we're apart of it."

"This area has a lot of different people in it.   They all think different, but they all want to trust in the same things.   I call it an essence of a person, some travelers once called it puraÑbut it all is the wisdom and sprit of someone."

"My sister used to tell me that although we cannot escape the forest, we have the wisdom and spirit of those that came before us to guise us and bring us together.   The type of aspen tree that grows here embodies the wisdom and spirit of those from the past."

"Together in a forest, huh?" muttered Marcus.   Terrence nodded.   The man in the black cloak slowly lowered his head from the skies and onto a nearby massive aspen.   He watched as a wilted leaf slowly fluttered to the ground.

"But you sister, PartheniaÉ?"

The jays and the finches sang across the hillside once more.   They fluttered from branch to branch between the aspens.   Each tree sounded like a choir of chirps and echoes.   Terrence's boot sank into the snow.   He kicked.

"We bury out dead underneath these aspen trees."

"Was it from consequence?"

"Yeah.   From an Empress."

Terrence sank back into the snow.   He closed his eyes and let the snow melt slightly from the heat of his skin.     He opened them to watch the birds sweep over his body in the sky.

"I'm hungry," he muttered at last.     Slowly the blond man rose to his feet.   Marcus took a deep breath.     He picked up his gun, stood, and began to march the last miles down the mountain.

The black canopies and bonfires that surrounded the encampment became clear as the to walked on.     The sounds of the wildlife began to fade as the noise of the encampment started to arrive at their ears.     The blond man began to clench his fist.

"Hey," muttered Marcus.   He paused and turned to his captive.   Terrence looked at the hooded man for a moment before he took notice of the man unleashing a cord of rope from his side.

"For consequence?" he asked.   Marcus nodded.

"You think," he muttered as the yellow twine was wrapped around the man's arms," you think that we can step away from it all?     Perhaps not now, but maybe?"

"Two starving and tied men ware about to walk into a military encampment.   To survive they will do what they are told," he explained.     Marcus shook his head.

"Naw, I meanÉ. The forest.   Can we leave the forest?" he asked.     The man gave a weak smile.

"Why do you think trees grow upwards?"   he explained with a question.   The black-cloaked soldier nodded.   Leading the man by rope, he began to trudge forward into the snow.     The sounds of banter as well as cries of agony and mirth shot though the air.     Marcus was cold.

"Less then a kilometer to go," he muttered to his captive.






Sojourn Saga: 2, Choir
By: Michael
Thread: Iron Writer
Posted: November 07, 2002

Part 2 Dialoge


CHOIR


Your name from hence immortal life shall have,
Though I, once gone, to all the world must die:        
The earth can yield me but a common grave,        
When you entombed in men's eyes shall lie.

Sonnet LXXXI, William Shakespeare


"Wait a second!   Hey!   Where are you going?"   cried out Lars.   His boots stomped over the shards of broken glass from the blown out window.     Each piece was diamond in the glow of the sun.

"I'm sorry!" a feminine voice shrilled out as threadbare brown robes whirled around the corner and out of view.   Lars jerked his head to look to and for before he jolted down the block in pursuit.

It was a cold day in Albrook.   The Grand Army soldier grunted as he turned the corner only to see no one.     He gave a heavy sigh before pulling out his pistol and slowly making his way down the street.

It was nearly empty now, which seemed almost strange.     The sidewalks only weeks before were crowded with the bodies of the Esperians going and coming from Spekkio knows where.     He walked beside them all and listened to the pointless chatter they made with each other.     He nearly punched one in the face when the little punk called him a wimp for not being on the frontlines.

He was there now, alone and freezing.   It would only be hours before the area would be completely occupied by the Omniscient at the rate they were breaking through the lines, as he was told.     Somewhere only miles away hundreds of thousands of people were fighting each other.   Yet the air was strangely silent.

"Hey woman!     You gotta come with me!   I don't know where you are at, but listen!   I was told to make sure everyone as cleared out of here!   This place will probably be crawling with stinking Tanes any second now!"

He stood there at the street corner.   The man tucked a lock of thick brown hair back under his helmet as he looked down the streets.   Traffic lights ordered non-existent cars to stop and go.   For a moment Lars stood and watched the light change from red to blue.

"Miss, the last monorails out of here leaves in like," the grand Army soldier looked at the clock at the top of the traffic pole, "Twenty minutes!   Come on!" he called out once more.   In the stillness of the city the ruffling of bushes by an apartment complex caught his year.     He turned around sharply.

"How fast do they go?   Those Ômonorails'?" asked a feminine voice from the bushes.   The man slowly lowered his gun as he stepped closer to the foliage.   He couldn't help but smile at the thin frame of a woman that filtered through the leaves.

"You're not from around here, are you lady?" asked the man as he held out a hand to her.   The woman gently rose from behind the bush.   Her eyes were dark and empty, but her peach colored lips parted slightly in a timid pout.

"They can get you from here to the port in less then twenty minutes.     That's' were we're gonna go, because all civilians are to be evacuated to the docks where they will be taken the hell out of here," explained Lars.     The woman looked at him almost blankly that the soldier had to wonder if she had even understood him.

"I shall go with you," spoke the woman as she stepped around the bushes.   Lars nodded.

"What's your name miss?" he asked her as he stepped back onto the sidewalk.   The soldier watched as her lips thinned when he asked the question.

"Meshellea-nu."

"Can I call you Michelle?"

"Yes."

"Its good to meet you Michelle, I'm Lars,   now follow me," he muttered.    

The man raised his pistol as he began to march down the street.   As he walked his eyes darted back at the woman, who in turn was looking around as if stunned by the buildings.   Their eyes met a few times.   Lars darted his eyes quickly away and turned to look down the long line of cement and pavement.

"Why didn't you leave when the civilian call out was made?     Most of this city is already deserted," asked the GA soldier.

"I'm not a civilian," she explained.

"Then what are you?"

"I'm a Tane," she explained.   Lars turned around.   Almost at once his arm extended to point the gun at the woman, his eyes flushed red to a near bloodshot.

"What is that?   Some kind of sick joke?   Is this a trap?   Explain yourself!" he yelled out.   For some reason his hand began to tremble.   He looked at the woman in confusion but only found him lost along side of her within her eyes.

"IÉ I don't know what to say.   I'm sorry.   I just want to go home," she muttered in a near whisper.     She slowly stepped forward toward the Grand Army soldier.   Lars stiffed his jittery grip on the small silver weapon.   He stepped back.

"NoÉ" Michelle muttered.   The woman closed her eyes as she stepped closer.   The man pointed the gun to her bosom and tightened his trigger finger.     A tear fell from her eye as she let her body fall towards the soldier.

He fired.   The shot hit nothing but the mixture of stones in the cement they stood on.   The weapon fell to the sidewalk as he took hold of her in his brawny arms.   Her thick hood folded off of her head and revealed thick tufts of raven black hair.     It was only then that he noticed that the Tane was physically weak and exhausted.     Michelle began to cry.

"I'm sorry," she muttered as she tried to stand up.   She whipped her tears away on her torn sleeve.   Lars shook his head.

"It must be hard," he muttered as he held her by the shoulders, "to be in this land that you have never seen before.   I kind of understand, I'm not form here either.     I'm from a place called Porre," he told the exhausted woman with a smile.   She smiled faintly in return.

"Look," he muttered as she looked into her dark eyesÑhe winced as he looked into then, there was something about them that seem intoxicating, "I'll personally make sure you're safe, ok?   All my men have always been shipped off, and I'm to report to the docks anyway.   Does that sound good?"

She woman's eyes seem to glitter with something deep inside of her, but then she turned away and frowned.

"I wish you weren't here, I don't want to see you hurt," she muttered.   Her hands reached up to his gloved wrists and squeezed them tightly.   He let go.

"IÉ   let's go," he explained.     He crouched and retrieved the small silver pistol.   He adjusted his white and gold uniform before marching back down the street.

"Its too quiet," he muttered as he held his gun tightly as the walked.   Every so often he felt the woman's fingertips touch the middle of his back.   The small unintentional presses projected a sense of fear and trust like how a little girl trusted her father on a cold stormy night.

"I can't stand the silence, do me a favor Michelle, tell me something." he ordered in a strong voice that sounded like an officer.   The woman nodded.

"What do you want to know?" she asked in return.   Lars shrugged.

"Anything.   Maybe something about yourself," he asked.   The Tane smiled slightly but the grin was lost to the soldier's back.

For the next three blocks, Lars learned more about the land of magic and dreams known as Aryth then anyone outside of it had ever known.     Michelle talked about a land where people didn't use guns, where they could throw fire and create invisible walls with pill alone.        

He learned of a contentment dividedÑabout one side being a place full of bounty were those capable of the abilities to use such powers strived to understand the secrets of the universe.     He learned about the other side separated by mountains where those with such abilities were literally leashed and their powers stifled and controlled.

And, amidst it all there was a woman named Mishella-Nu.     "Éafter the leash was shot at, I scrambled away from his body and made my way here.   That's where you found me,"   the woman explained as her hand raced though her raven back hair.  

Lars paused for a moment at a street corner as the attempted to get his bearings.     The man pulled out a small compass and tapped his helmet.     His scalp itching, he took off his helmet and placed it on Michelle's head.

"Now that looks silly," he muttered as he looked at the woman.   The large metal crown covered her head and hid her eyes.   His smile turned to a frown.

"You seem soÉ broken," he muttered.   The woman stood next too him, still refusing the fix the helmet like a doll which had no choice.     He lifted it off.

""I'm sorry," she muttered.     Lars smiled.

"It's alright.   We're almost there, see?" he explained as he pointed at the large strip of rail that rose above the ground only blocks away.     Almost as if one cue, a single stream of yellow sung on the horizon.   Seconds later the sky was filled with a choir of lights and explosions.

"Oh noÉ" he muttered.   Mishella-Nu began to scream.   She covered her years to mute the loud thunderous songs that the choir sang.   Lars pressed his helmet down onto his head tightly while shielding the woman's body.   Like raindrops the explosions splashed and landed on the surrounding houses.        

It was almost surreal when a shard of wreckage crashed against the lamp pole across the street and knocked it over.   The blue glow of the traffic light flashed red before shutting off completely.

Then silence.     Lars looked around for signs of battleÑrival troops, his own GA brethrenÑbut there was nothing.     Michelle stopped yelling.

"That was an orbital bombardment.   Damn.     That's really odd, a real orbital bombardment would have flatten this area.   I don't know what's going on Michelle, but it isn't good.   Oh no!" his eyes bulged before he began to race down the street to the rail.   The Tane followed in toe like a lost puppy.

He found himself racing up to the top of a set of brick steps.   Hopping over the terminal gate, the soldier ran to the front of the tracks.     His hands pressed into a pair of fists.   He heaved a heavy breath before slouching and looking down at the rails.

"The lines are dead Michelle.   The thing won't work now," he explained.   Meshella-Nu shook her head.

"No.     No!     No!   We have to get out of here!   Me must!   We must!" he cried out.   Lars turned to face the woman and held his shoulders to calm her down.   The woman pushed him away and wrapper face with her hands.

"Don't worry.   Ok?   Listen, we can still get out of here, there's a lot of cars around.     I'll just commandeer one ok?   I think I know the way the port.   Trust me.   JustÉ stop flipping out on me, ok?"

The woman nodded.   Lars reached out to hold her but she pushed him away.   He stared at her in her threadbare garments.   Albrook was silent.

"Put this on, I don't want you to be hurt," muttered the soldier.   As he unstrapped his helmet once more.     He placed it on her head and made sure it was a snug fit.     He jiggled it slightly to try and make the woman laugh.   The Tane smiled slightly, but looking into her eyes they seems as dark and empty as before.

"I wish I never met you," she muttered.   Lars looked at her thin face and lips.   They pounded slightly.

"Don't worry, I'll keep you safe," he tried to reassure her.     She nodded.   The Grand Army soldier began to walk down the steps of the terminal.   Michelle followed.

"I don't understand this, Celiose Cole would never do something like that to his own city.     I mean, this is Albrook, the Headquarters of the Grand Army itself!" he explained to the women under the helmet.     Meshella-Nu nodded.

"I was thinking, after I get you to the port, they'll probably interrogate you and I'll never see you again," he explained. Meshella-Nu nodded.

"So I was thinking, maybe you don't tell them you're a tane, hmm?   Don't worry, I'll keep tabs on you.     I'll take care of you.   Are you hungry?   Maybe we can get some dinner later.   Sound good?"   the soldier asked. Meshella-Nu nodded.

"Good.   Stop nodding," he instructed.     The woman stopped.   As they walked down the deserted streets the cam came across a motorized biped.   Lars ginned.   The keys were still sitting on the leather seat.

"This'll do.   Where I'm from they have things like this that hover, and I used to ride mine all the time.       This should get us there real quick.     Just don't worry, ok?"

"Ok," he hopped on the motorcycle and turned his on, continuing the grin.   The man patted the side behind him.

"Sit here," he instructed.   The woman sat down, tugging his garbs around her thighs.

"Ok, no wrap your arms around me and hold on.   This is going to be really fast," he explained.   He pulled into the empty street and put on the gas.     With a hard jolt from the bike the woman clenched onto the man's sturdy chest tightly.     She wouldn't loosen her grip to the man's body.

"You ever ate a hamburger?   I don't think you have.   I'll buy you one.   Would you like that?" he yelled back to Michelle.   The woman didn't respond. And squeezed him tighter.   The wind blew across his face and tossed his brown hair into the sky.     His blue eyes follow the white lines down the road.

Once again from the holes in the heavens, the choir began to sing.     Meshellea-Nu turned her head to see the long streamers of bright light attack an invisible done, only bounce off and taper towards them.  

The roar of the engine stiffened any sound of crashing windows and flying debris.   This time very few objects flew in their direction.   Meshellea-Nu began to whimper as the songs began to fade.   The second bombardment was her swan songÑshe knew it.

"So, you can do that magic hocus pocus?   That's with the treads and stuff, right?   I read the briefings.   What thread do you specialize in?" asked Lars.   He slowed the motorcycle down as he paused to read a street sign.

"Fate," she explained.     Lars scratched his head.   He turned to look back from the way they came, oblivious to the second bombardment that had fallen.

"You know what?     I think this street winded back too much when it turned East.     Hold on and sec and let me think.     Fate huh?   What do you see for us?"

"Unity.   Togetherness.   ThenÉ death," she explained cryptically.

"Ok, don't worryÉ I think I got this figured out now.     I need to go east a few more blocks before we can go down to the docks.     We're like on the tip of the Neueburg district right now.     They have some really good clothing stores there.   When this is over, I'll take you to get some good clothes ok?"

"I wish I never met you," she muttered while holding the man tightly.   Lars shook his head.

"You're so confusing," he muttered under his breath, he looked up to the sky.   It was a little overcast.

"TogethernessÉ then death?"   he asked with a curious solemn voice.   She nodded.

"I'm so sorry," he muttered.     The GA soldier could feel her bosom tremble.       He closed his eyes for a moment and let his fears sweet over him for a moment.     He sighed.   The air was thin and silent in the vacant city.
"I meanÉ are you sure?   You're not trying to freak me out, because you don't like me, right?     I know I act a bit like a kid sometimes but that's because youÉ"

"I'm sure Lars.   Thank you. This is why I regret meeting you.   I didn't want you to follow my fate."

"How soon?   You mean years?   Months?   Days?"

"Very soon."

"From the start then, you knew.   That's why you ran," he muttered.     He sat on the motorcycle dumbfounded.   How did she know?     Why did she know?   He stared at the empty intersection.     The lights were still dark and unlit.   The clock read five minutes until noon.

"Can I kiss you?"   he asked abruptly, turning his head.     He could see the woman nod slightly.   The soldier slowly pulled himself off of the motorcycle.   Meshellea-Nu's arms lingered on his back and hips.

He helped her off the motorcycle.   They stood in the middle of the intersection of Parkway Street and Landburg Avenue.     It concept that somewhere close an army marched onward toward the city seemed to be lost him now.

Lars pulled off the helmet he had placed on the Tane.   He ran his fingers though her long black hair.   The raven black hair glistened in the sunlight.   Michelle smiled.     The grand army solder wrapped his brawny arms around the woman and looked deep into her dark empty eyes.

He felt his lips meet with the woman's thin peach smile.       He knew that his tongue was tracing over the woman's teeth.   It was a sensation that he had desired since he had looked into her eyes.

He remembered seeing a sparkle or something in her eyes before.   The GA soldier wanted to see her eyes again.   He slowly pulled away.     He looked into the emptiness, hoping to find that spark or something hidden deep within them.

Lost in his search, the sparkle came almost instantly.   In the browns and black there was a small reflection of blue.     He watched the reflection grew brighter, and then suddenly everything began engulfed and evaporated into a heavenly orchestrated chorus of   bright blue light.





Sojourn Saga: 3, Junk
By: Michael
Thread: Iron Writer
Posted: November 07, 2002

Part 3 Dialoge

Junk


[No quote today.]

"You sitting there thinking about shit again Jones?" muttered Johnson as he popped open a red mog.   He took a long sip before sitting in the shade of the pile of metal, wires, and grease.   He tossed off his white leather uniform jacket and hanged it on a gun turret.

The sun shined nicely as the day was slowly moving towards the afternoon.   The two men sat there on side of a hill in a land they had never seen before contemplating things that changed destines of all people in the web of worlds.     As the wind blew over the long thin blades of grass and wild wheat, the two gentlemen relaxed and let it all soak in.   The definition of what Ôit' was in essence was disputed over within their minds.   The amount of color, heat, and smell of the air was hard to measure as it all blended in on those hot early autumn days.

"Just the happy thoughts, Johnson, just the happy thoughts," he explained.     The man uprooted a blade of wheat from the ground and cut the tip with his fingernails.     He stuck it on the edge of his lips.

"And what happy thoughts are ya thinkin' about today?" asked Johnson as she traced his hands though his dirty blonde hair.       The soldier rubbed the scar on his chin.     Jones ginned.     It was funny to see how the comrade in arms always traced his fingers over his car whenever he was about to think of something philosophical.

"Oh, actually about you.     How you have everything together.     Wife, kid, a little place in Southtown.     That's real sweet. Like a dream."

"Well, Southtown is getting to be a little run down these days.   We may move when this is all over, it may be a pretty hard place to raise a kid in a few years."

"Then you should come with me.     I'm thinking of starting a business," he explained.   The wind blew harshly.   The large edifice of metal began to way back and forth and small broken shards of iron clank together like a wind chime.   The air brought with it the smell of some honey-baked bread from the nearby fortifications.   By days end the thick walls will have tumbled and the bakery set ablaze.

"You?   I don't think you have the head for it.   That's like theft, especially back in Tasnica." Muttered the man with the dirty blonde hair.   Jones looked up to the large vapors in the sky like tumbling about like glaciers in a sea of icy blue.   Above them in a distance that would take both men days to walk the clouds trailed off into unknown lands beyond the horizon.

"Have I ever told you why I joined REF, and then the Grand Army Johnson?" asked the soldier to his friend as he chewed the end of the wheat.     Johnson shook his head.

"When I was little, my mom always told me that I could do anything with my life because there was so many people what I did didn't make much difference in the big picture."

The shards of metal flickered and clanked together haphazardly.   Johnson turned his gray eyes to look at the battle armor that stood only a few feet taller then both men's heights combined.   It was a rather base looking thing with rust on the edges of the steel plating.

ÔBut steel don't rust," muttered Jones as he traced Johnson's' view.   The soldier scratched his chin.

"Funny little buggers.     These MSiege machines were supposed to be the top line of technology.   They look like ugly tin cans with pea shooters strapped on," poked Johnshon.   Jones slide down on the knoll and covered his face with this cap.

"You should see the things they're coming up with in other places.   Real robotics. They got things made of metal and almost look human," he explained.

"Yeah?   No shit.   I'd like to drive around in one of those," he muttered.     Jones grinned to himself in a dogged manner.

"Drive?   Try fly."

"Yeah?   No kidding?"

"Well, I think it's possible.   I have a few ideas I want to try," he explained.   His eyes looked from under the lip of his cap to the long expanse of emerald and golden grains.   For a moment the air breathed heavily across the prairie, and Jones could do little more then close his eyes and sigh.

"Like what?"

"LikeÉ wings.   I want to give this robot wings."

Johnson turned again and looked at the cylinder covered in bolts.   He whirled the gun arm to hear it whistle from the air.   He took a thick sip of his Red Mog.   He tried to picture it with eagle wings.

"I was told the other day that they were thinking of making these the best toy of the Army, but instead they went with the tank.   Do you know why Jones?"

"Why?"

"Because the tank promotes teamwork.   It is right there next to the grunt who is charging forward with his neddlegun in hand.   Everyone knows what the tank is. It's something to unify the army with."

Jones didn't seem to care of hear as she folded his leg across his kneed and appear to nap on the side of the hill.   A set of birds swarmed the sky and in unison turned around and flew toward the cent of honey.   Johnshon shook his head.     He reached for his jacket and pulled out a small trinket from his pocket.

"Wings like these?" he asked as he pulled out a small model.   It was of a flying machine from Carrion.   They called it an airplane.

"You make that John?" asked the soldier as he reached out to hold the small model.     The man nodded.

"Yeah.   My kid has a thing for models.     Fara keeps writing that he wants to fly one.     They boy wants to go out in space.   Isn't that rich?"

Jones twirled the propeller of the small airplane.   He began to read the label on the can that it was made out of.     He reached out and handed it back to his friend.

" Nice.   Space, huh?     It sounds like something you'd want to do.   You're crazy like that."

He placed the toy back into his white jacket before sitting back down with his drink.   "You're the one who wants the start that company.     Do you know what you're gonna make?   Or is it going to be those pieces of junk with wings?"

"I have ideas.   There is this son of a farmer who started this company, Kuwat.   I was talking to him once and he said all that you really needed was to be determined and have a dream.     I have lots of dreams."

"Name one."

"To be able to go home."

"Good call."

Jones sat up.   He placed his cap on his lap folded his arms to hunch over.       He chewed on the wheat stock as he watched the grass grow.   Cicadas and crickets and even some gladiator bugs   (they had a good number of those in Crystal for some reason) hopped and crawled about with little care in the world.   How sweet it had to be not to care like the insects.   Jones looked up into the sky.     The clouds were rolling and crashing together like waves in a tide pool.       He sighed.

"If I eventually did make one of these things with wings, would you pilot one?" he asked looked partly back at the oversized wind chime.   Jonshon laughed.

"Shit no.   Get my kid to do it.     I can't stand heights," he explained.   Jones grinned.

"What's your kid's name?"

"I can never say it right.   Fara asked a friend who was a nun for some strange Light sect.   Adel, or Abel, or something.     I just call him Abe."

"Abdiel?"

"Yeah!   How'd you know?" asked Johnson as he finished off the liquor in the red glass bottle.     He tossed it aside and watched it roll down the grassy hill.

"Its from a famous character in a poem.   It was the only angel to stay faithful to God."

" Faithful, huh?   I guess that works," he muttered.   The sunlight flickered off the red glass and shimmered.   Jones eyes became fixated on the flickering red light.  

"I'd like you to do it, but if you can't do it, then he'll do it.   I'll make sure of it," spoke Jones.   He watched as the last drops of liquid in eh red bottle seemed to rock about inside like ink that could not settle.

The afternoon was beginning to wear down, and the two men rested on the side of the hill.   Their faces faded into tired masks.   As the warm hair blew across their cheeks their faces remained expressionless.

The large metal armor stood at the head of both men, looking over them like a bonze statue in a park center.     Two birds from the previous flock swooped down and landed on its shoulders.

"Jones, I know I don't got to say this, but I wanna make sure.   If I don't make it after this battle, I want you to make sure fare and the kids are treated good.   I mean, don't be like all mushy and give them money and crap.     Just make sure they stay out of trouble."

"You're right, you didn't have to ask.     Having a premonition?"

"Maybe.   I dunno.     I don't wanna think about it anymore."

"Gothca," whispered Jones as he rested there.       The sweet smell of the afternoon meal seeped into his nostrils and baked with the head of the sun on his skin.     Jones looked back slightly to see the two birds fluttered their wings as they sat on the edge of the machine.

"Mom was wrong though.   All I ever wanted was to help people.   Just a little help goes a long wayÑI've seen that.   That's why I'm here Johnson, that's why I'm here."





Sojourn Saga: 4, BODHISATTVAS
By: Michael
Thread: Iron Writer
Posted: November 07, 2002

Closing Dialoge

BODHISATTVAS



"And thenÉ huhÉ. how'd it goÉ."

The old man should have died such a damn long time ago, it really pisses me off that I have to spend my evening him. Almost every fucking weekend now. I have better things to do. Not baby-sit fucking grandpa and Chrissie all night.

"Éand then the man entered the pharmacy Dad Dad! He up to the doctor there and he saidÉ!"
"Oh he entered the pharmacy and he saidÉ uhÉ shitÉ sorry sweetieÉ"

"Don'cha remember Dad Dad! Don??" she asked him. She knew he didn't and the little shit teased him about it every weekend. If she was only old enough to understandÉ

"He has fucking Alzheimer's. Leave him alone Chrissie," I muttered. The old bastard looked at me with those pink eyes that look like they came from a skinned rat. He looked angry at first but then he seemed to loose it completely. Chrissie kept poking his fat gut.

"WhatÉ where am I?" he asked me. I sighed.

"You're dead. A sniper shot you and your buddies in the Great War. Welcome to hell Dad dad," I said to him. The old man jumped out of his seat and tossed Chrissie to the ground. He looked about the room frantically.

"What? Harrion! Gartlls! MikDustin Kittelson? Where are you Dustin Kittelson? Where the fuck did you leave me?" he cried out. I couldn't help but laugh my ass off. Just the way he looked so afraid, it was funny as hell.

Freaking Chrissie got hurt and ran and told Mom though. She is such a bitch to me, so I got sick of it all and told her off. I told her I was tired of sitting around on my weekends watching sis and granddad while she was busy getting fucked by some new boyfriend. Man, did she get pissed after that. What a fucking bitch I swear. I think she was man because it was true. She kicked me out saying she was sick of my shit and told me not to come back.

It gets like this sometimes. I just come back the next morning. Not like she can do anything about it, I help pay the bills. Of course Grandpa forgets that I ever made fun of him anyway, which is why I don't understand why the bitch gets so pissed off at me. He is pretty much already dead.

Fuck, I hope I don't ever get like that.

It was already like seven and it was dark out. I walked to the little Kwait mart at the corner of the street and dialed up Moji. I regret that now. I should have ran off somewhere and cried. I should have been more of a man then Dad was and not even start shit with Mom or Chrissie or even Dad Dad.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. I went there to pick make a quick call. Some chick was sitting there on the phone with someone already, and she was sitting on the ground crying. I tried to ignore her.

"Moji? This is Tommy. You busy? Yeah? Well, I'm at the K andÉ oh, ok. Thanks," I muttered into the greasy phone. I once saw a guy jerking off while having phone sex at a pay phone late at night. I hate using them now.

I went and walked to the corner so Moji could see me. It was be a while; he was picking up April and Nina first. They wanted to go clubbing in Tasnicaport or some shit. I sat there on the cub and watched the cars drive by.

"FUCK YOU! I DOWAN TTO FUCKING TALK TO YOU ANY MORE! I D WANT TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU ANYMORE!" scrd the chick that was sitting next to the phone talking. I closed my eyes. And you guys thought I was bad.

Actually, for some reason people will let you say whatever shit you want and it can be a best seller. Here let me show you what was in my shcoolbook:



Well, you get the idea. I'm not that good with scanners. And they call that poetry. I call it porn. The teacher was like getting off on it too. I think the whole school system wants us to write that kind of shit. It makes me sick.

So then this chick is freaking out and Moji pulls up in his dad's car. It's a nice one, that's why he gets stuck giving rides. That and he's a year older then everyone else and the only one with a license. I have one too but I have no car.

"Hey Moji. Hi Nina, April," I mutter as I hop into the car. I was lucky to sit by Nina. She's got that punk look going on and she's got nice titties. She's really sweet too.

"So another for our little gloom parade, huh?" asked Moji. He was listening to his usual metal. The old stuff and that crap from like Scande or something. The only stuff I liked that Moji listened to was by X Fab or something like that.

"Yeah," I muttered. Moji didn't say any more. That's what I liked about Moji, he knew when to shut up.

Not like April though. "I can't believe that prick. We've been together for eleven months! Elemonths! To you should be my boyfriend, you're not as hot as Greg was but at least you know how to treat me right!"
See, the thing was that April was a complete looser slut. You know the type, the girl that needs a guy to cling to otherwise they flip out. They go after anyoneÑfriends, friends of friends, and even people they only met for like ten minutes. Girls you know what I'm talking about, that one stupid bitch that's a friend of a friend who always tries to steal people's boyfriends, especially yours.

April always tried to hit on me whenever her last boyfriend had the common sense to get the hell away from her. I just ignored her. She wasn't even all to pretty, she just dressed nice and put out way too much.

The thing was that she lived next door with Nina and grew up with her, so Nina would never do anything without her. We couldn't hold this against Nina though, she was like the nicest girl you'd ever meet.

"You going to be ok Tommy?" she asked me poking my little belly. I always hated when she did that but damn, like I'm gonna complain about her touching me and shit. He folded my arms and looked out the window. Moji was about to get on the freeway.

"Yeah, its cool. We just need to chill for a while, that's all," I told her. She nodded. She rested her head on my shoulder and grabbed my arm. I noticed that Moji looked at us though the mirror. I sighed. You had to understand that Nina was the type of girl who would hold any guy's arm. Moji was kind of introspective and never quite understood that.

"Hey, I called your ass earlier, but mom said that you had to go somewhere. What was up with that?" I asked Moji. He shook his head.

"There was like this cherry blossom festival thing at the park that my mom took off work for today. She was like all into shit and me going. She wanted me to learn something important about it, or some dumb shit like that," he explained.

It was funny when he talked about his family he would always mess with his necklace. He always had spikey hair and these concentration beads he wore over all his clothing. The guy was from this area of gate that was like out in the boon docks or something. His dad still went back there to work all the time, so it was always him and his mom.

That's how I met Moji. Me and him used to bitch a lot about our moms back in grade school. It was great. Moji reached into his pocket and pulled out some Kleenex and handed to April again. The stupid bitch must have started crying again.

"Its ok April sweetie, he was an asshole anyway," coaxed Nina as she reached past me and patted April on the shoulder. I sighed and looked out the window.

The freeway sloped down a hill between two sets of old shitty houses with chain link fences. They had like these thick hedges and thick walls to block the view of the shitty houses for most of the time, except this one part between off ramps. I happened to be looked at the messed up houses with the aluminum sheds when sitting on a hill looking at the cars was the fattest, ugliest piece of shit woman I had ever seen. She sat in like a baby blue set of seat clothes but with dirty brown stains all over her crotch and chest. She was barefoot and her hair was a nappy mess that looked like birds made and nest and worms were crawling in it.

She stared at me from under this thick balding brow. It was like she was looking at me thinking what the hell had I done to deserve better then her. Yet at the same time it was like even as fat and as ugly as fuck she was still better then me, like she was the queen of the freeway or something. I wished those fat ugly chicks would just die or something.

"Oh, did you see that show today? The one on the Bahamut WEB T channel. They had all those people from every Dimension living on a shapeship! I wike ohmygod that;s cool cool!" spup Nina. Moji turned down the music to listen.

"My cousin is on that show," he explained. Nina's eyes brightened. Moji is cool but he can be such a fucking lair, I swear.

"Oh, I know which one! Buu know what April? Did you see the guy from the West, he's sooo seski! Oh when they had him in the hot tub with his cowboy hat onÉ Yummy!" shplained. April giggled.

"We better rustle us up some westerners tonight then girl!" red April. Nina laughed and whooted. It was kinda funny. Moji remained silent, which made me grin. He so doesn't know how to deal with that. I mean come on, guys are worse.

"Which way is it?" asked Moji as he drove. Freakin' Tasnicaport has like twenty off ramps. I didn't know the want the girls wanted to go to. Hell, I wasn't evens sure if they were go let me in, I looked like shit.

"I mean come on though, That Stacy chick is so gonna go for the big black guy. They always set up the shows like that," complained April.

"Woah, that's a cool car," I muttered as I looked out the window. It was like that one car that the guy from Diamond raced. The one that looked more like a street car then a race car. Moji checked it out too. It has like that tube spoiler and a huge exhaust. It had to be illegal.

"So where is this place April?" asked Moji again. I turned and looked at Nina. She smiled at me in that sweet way girls sometimes do when they don't have anything good to say.

"Hey Moji, turn up the music, I like this song," I told him. The song was fucking awesome. It was a huge battle between the lead singer with an electric guitar and the main guitarist with an acoustic. It sounded so badass.

"Yeah, sure. Where is the exit?"

"Didn't I tell you already? Hey, did you see that one show with the couples that broke up and then the other wants to get to them by any cost? They were doing some crazy shit!" sairil. She was such a damn ditz, I swear to god.

"I said turn up the music Moji!" I to him. It was funny because you can see his face get all irritated and shit. I wanted to ask him again just to see if he'd yell or something. When he yelled his voice got high pitched like a girl.

"Fuck guys, were is the exit?" he asked us again, irritated. April pointed to the side of the car. I shook my head, she was so dumb is pissed me off so much.

"That's it right there!" sheled out. Moji whirled the car about that it nearly tipped over. Then he spun the wheel back as to not hit into a cement barrier. It was kinda fun.

"Fucking shit you guys! I asyou all like three times and you ignored me! Fuu," grumbled Moji and he turned his head to complain to us. Not like it was my fault, I have no fucking idea where we were going.

There was this old dirty man shinning in the headlights of Moji's dad's car. At where the off ramp met the street. He looked at us in shock as the little car rammed into him in the hip and flipped him onto the hood. Moji whirred the car again but it was too late and it only swing the old bastard off the hood. Nina screamed.

"Fucking shit Moji, what the fuck did you just do!" I d out. April kind of looked at us all and didn't say anything. Moji brought the car to a screeching halt. We where stopping in the middle of the intersection.

Moji turned the music off. I watched as he slowly unbuckled and opened his door slightly. I reached for my door but it was like he knew I was reaching.

"Stay," he commanded. My hand dropped. I never herd Moji ever sound like that before. It was like his dad, and that really freaked me out. He turned on the emergency lights and stepped outside into the night air.

April began to shake her knee nervously. It was rocking the whole car and fucking pissing me off. "Stupid bum," she muttered. Nina looked at her feet.

"I saw that show. Marcy and I were talking about how Toby and her should be on it. She'd soo dump him in a minute!" spoina. April gigged nervously. I looked out the back window to see what Moji was doing. It was too dark.

"YeahÑand Tom, did you hear about Starsha? She's single again and she was asking about you!" sp April. Nina laughed. Starsha was this hot Aryth student who had a crush on me last year. They're aren't many of them around, and for some reason all Aryth chicks are fucking hot.

"YeahÉ what did she say?"

"She was asking if it was true that you had huge nads!" spopril. Nina laughed, she had small teeth that I liked. I don't know why, but freshmen year there was this rumor going around that I had big balls. You know how kids are curious. "Kids", what the hell am I talking about?

Moji came back into the car. He put it back in drive and we went to the club. Nina and April kept rattling on and one with me, but for some reason Moji was more silent. I asked him some questions and told him to turn up some songs, but he ignored me. I thought he was pissed off at me or something.

Parking was a bitch and it cost like five bucks. Moji paid for it with no complaints. We went and waited inline beside like this old building from when the city started to grew. It was funny, you had all these skyscrapers, and then you had all these old, cement and concrete buildings that were like only sixteen stories tall.

I leaned against the wall of the building as the line slowly moved inside. Besides a bouncer at the front the club itself was on the top floor and the roof of the building. It was kind of cold and windy that night. Moji stood next to me with his arms folded.

They let us in of course. Not like they're gonna turn us out. The place smelled like an old tried factory or something. They had the usual party crapÑbright lights, flashing strobes, greasy faced punks that wanna fuck any horny chick in a thong. I don't know what made me angrier, the stupid sluts of the fucking idiot guys. I can see why some woman can't stand menÑthey're all sluts.

Like ten minutes after stepping inside Nina and April vanished on me. I walked over to the bar and asked for a beer. They gave me a cream soda. I tried to side there and drink it but they were playing that teeny-bob techno shit that makes my head throb. I looked at all the girls in the small skirts and the tight black pants that showed off their asses when I saw Moji out of the corner of my eye. He was going to the rooftop. His hands were on the concentration beads.

I got off my stool and followed him up. The party was dead onside, mostly because the wind was knocking all the shit over and the wired were getting stepped on. It was a pretty shitty club, I can't see why the girls wanted to come to this place.

Moji pushed some chairs and knocked down some black plastic as he went to the other side of the roof. I followed him. By this time my head was hurting from all the crazy shit and I just wanted to sit down somewhere quiet.

When I got around the tarp I saw Moji standing on the very edge of the building. The very fucking ledge. I slowly walked up to him.

"What's a matter guy?"

He warbled a little as the wind picked up and pushed him a little. It was so fucking cold, but I don't think either of us thought about it.

"Tom, you ever think about things ?" he asked me. He looked over the ledge and into the alley. It was getting me so nervous.

"Yeah. I think about shit all the time, you know that," I said to him. He turned around and looked at me so fast that I thought that was going to fall over. There was a passion and intensity ironed into his face that I thought he had gone mad.

"No, not like that. I meanÉ think. Really think," he said. The regurgitation of pop culture in the form of music floated in the air. We could hear the sirens in the streets. It was cold.

"Like how think?"

"Like none of this fucking shit. Not about us. Not about me. Not about Nina, or April, or anyone else so fucked up on themselves. Like the flowers. The goddamn fucking flowers!"
"What the fuck are you talking about Moji?"

Moji turned back around and looked down. He shook he head only to race his fingers though it. For a moment I thought that had really going fucking nuts. I felt my heart start thumping harder.

"The man I hit? He was dead. Guts hanging out all over and his head bashed in on the curb. I killed a man tonight Tom. I'm a fucking murderer."

"You're not a murderer," I muttered. I didn't know what to say, my spine had a chill in it. I felt so sick.

The moon was glowing over Moji's shoulder. I remember that now. His frenzied face grew to become a sad expression. I didn't know what made him so sad. He shook his head.

"No, we're not murderers. We're much worse. We've become negligent, I see that now. Tom, you know that park near the school?"

I nodded. There was that seriousness in his voice again that scared the shit out of me.

"Mom was dragging my ass there. They have cherry trees there that blossom for a week then they fall off and fade away. Those flowers Tom."

"What about them Moji?" I asked him. He was so fucking close to the ledge that the tip of his toes stuck off. I wanted to call out to someone but fuck, you'd know he'd jump then.

"What about the flower Moji?" I asked him. At that point didn't give a shit what he said, as long as I kept him talking. He looked at me with his gloomy face and shook his head.

"She was saying that we had to savor the day because the flowers only last a short time and they're so beautiful. I had no fucking idea what she was talking about until I saw that's man's grey mess splattered all over the curve."

"I don't understand," I said. I didn't.

"I can't explain it. I saw something I never saw or understood before and everything started coming together so fast. Shit Tom, we're all such assholes. You ever realize that? Murderers and assholes," he told me. I shook my head in protest.

"You're not a fuckin' murderer, so quick fucking saying that."

Moji shook his head now. His somber face turned into a faint grin.

"We're so sheltered that we feel free to run around like little brats in broken homes. At least we have a home. We're not like the homeless guy. Can you imagine that? Living like crap only to be hit by a car and die. Where is the poetry in that?"

Poetry, he was getting off on fucking poetry. "I want to go back inside," I told him. Moji ignored me and turned to face the alley again. The moon seemed to be a halo or some shit over his shoulders. It was tripping me out.

"I won't let you go. Just not yet. I want to help you Tom. I know none of this makes any fucking sense to you. It seems all too sudden. It is for me, I'm still trying to figure it out."

He turned and looked at the moon like a stray cat. It was kind of funny to see freakin' Moji get like this, but at the same time it was likeÉ shit. Like he was a messenger. I don't know.

"How are you going to help me Moji?" I asked him. I hoped like mad that Nina would come over and talk him down. I didn't like where this was going. I didn't need this shit, not tonight.

"Some things you just have to experience to understand. The way I experienced it was tainted though. I want you to be clean of it all. I want you to understand it more then I do."

"Experience what Moji?" I asked him. The yellow moon glowed behind him. I closed my eyes for a moment.

"In a little bit, go to that park. Go and fall asleep under the cherry tree. I think you'd begin to understand then. But firstÉ"

I tried to reach out and grab him, but Moji hopped right off. I leaned over and reached out for the sleeve of his pants. The alley was day and about half way I lost sight of him.

Moji was dead. I stood there for a moment stuck dumb. For a moment I felt like I was no longer at the club, no longer in Tasnicaport, nowhere on the planet. I felt like I was someplace else. I felt as if I was finally no longer enchanted. Moji was dead. This life was real and for him it was over.

I stepped back. I didn't know what to do with myself. I felt my body shaking and the air seemed cold to me at last. Everything was spinning and my head just wasn't right anymore. I wanted to cry out. I wanted to scream. What was it with this fucking world that everything fucking damn thing could go wrong tonight.

The only damn thing I can make clear in my mind was that I wanted to go back home. Mom would still be pretty bitchy at me but it was the only thing I could think of. I walked back around to the other side of the rooftop and back past the black plastic tarp,. The people shook their hips and asses to the music. It seemed soÉ why? Why did we need to do such a thing?

I looked through the crowd for April and Nina. The whole place was making me feel sick now. I couldn't stand looking at them allÑthese angsty typical teenagers who want to act like shitheads all night long and not even notice the hurt that they cause to others and themselves.

Murderers said Moji. Maybe it was finally sinking into this thick skull of mine. My eyes caught a glimpse of two girls cuddling in the corner. One of them saw me and pulled away from her companion to wave. It was Nina. AS I walked though the sweating bodies I tried to come up with something to say. Some sort of excuse.

"Its time to go," I muttered. They both looked at me funny for a moment but like some sort of lost sheep they both obeyed. I didn't even check to see if they were following when I headed to the front door. I fumbled for my keys and tired to remember if I ever gave back Moji his spare.

As I entered the elevator back down April and Nina were racing to catch up to me. I didn't really care if they were coming home with me or not, I just wanted out of there. I couldn't be like Moji, and act so haughty, I was still a spoiled kid. I wanted to go back to that bed or something. I wanted to get away.

"Where's Moji?" asked Nina. I stared at the little yellow lights at the top of the door. I didn't feel it but I new my face seemed emotionless to the two girls.

"He went away already," I muttered. I fumbled with the keys in my pocket, trying to find the right one. The elevator door open and I walked out into the streets of the city.

"Who is gonna drive us home?" asked April with some bitchy tone in her voice. She could walk for all I care. I walked into the parking lot.

"Don't worry about it," I muttered as I unlocked Moji's car. I didn't even bother to notice before but there was a huge ass blood covered dent. I slide my body inside and turned on the car. Fucking engine roared like a lion. I didn't drive much.

"You know the way back?" asked April. Fcuking slut.

"Don't worry about it," I muttered back at her. I peeled out of the parking lot and started to drive back to the freeway. Everything blurred past me-it wasn't that I was going too fast, but I was dizzy. I felt sick.

Nina and Apirl both sat in the back seat. I could hear them fidget about at first, but soon them both leaned against each other with Nina's head resting on April's shoulder. I tried not to pay attention and instead watch the freeway. Then I hear a soft sucking sound. In the mirror I can see the two women kiss.

I don't know. It's not like I have anything against that sort of stuffÑfuckÑmost guys get off to that kind of thingsÑbut I just couldn't take it. Not tonight. I bit my lip so that I wouldn't puke.

Then I saw Nina's eyes catch mine in the mirror, and she giggled bashfully. April caught on and laughed as well. It was a bout three miles back to our neighborhood.

"Jealous Tommy? Its alright I know its so sudden, but she can give me what guys can't andÉ"

"Éand Aprils kisses are so good!" ch in Nina with a giggle.

I pulled the car over. I ran my fingers though my hair. I could feel my eyes bulging.

"Get the fuck out of the car."

"What?"

"I said get the fuck out of the fucking car you fucking sluts!"
They looked at me as if I had gone mad. Maybe I had I don't know. I turned around and looked at the two girls. One look at the expression of my face was enough to make them both open the doors and step outside.

"You`re fucking whacko Tommy," muttered Nina as she slammed the car door. I drove off as fast as I could. My head was racing. There were no stars out and the moon was hidden behind clouds. I pulled onto the off ramp. I drove past my house.

I found myself driving to the park. I drove right onto the grass. Like a madman I simply got out, slammed the door, and began to walk fast to the trees. I wanted that answer that Moji had. I wanted it all to make sense.

Or maybe it didn't make sense and Moji couldn't keep it all together. The world was unraveling before me and every little inconsistency of society was becoming clear. The trees were on the side of this man made lake in the middle of the park. The whole ground was covered in petals as I walked up to the trees.

Little pink ones. I walked to the center of them all and dropped my body to the ground. I looked up to the sky and to the yellow moon as it came from behind the clouds. I laid there and awaited whatever it was that Moji understood.

I started to cry. I hadn't cried in a good long time. It felt good. I looked up at the cherry threes that seemed to be glowing violet in the moonlight. The wind howled and swept though the trees. Every little petal on the trees began to fall off and flow to the ground like parachutes.

It was beautiful.